From start, I sold at bottom when slippage occur. I was too reckless. I thought they are always the same.
So most of the night, I was trying just to re-coup. And then I sold at top, big size (tilting again), I was at break-even and even some profit. But I held, I thought it would still go down. US data was bullish.
And thinking that it would go further down, I added another lot size short and thats where the root problem occurs. That last position caused me lost (overall) which I dont want end like this. I went back in and in and in like how it always occur.
My FXDD account got margin called twice. Year's profit gone plus some loss. My Oanda is still ok, hanging on where it is.
Fuck me. I am going nuts trying to trade the market. I should really find more discipline in myself.